Hello - it's been a long time. I've been slowly picking up the paint brush again. The painting above is based on our kids when we were in Vail seven years ago. With the help from my mom, they made 3 snowmen just like above.
My mom spent hours out in the snow rolling those big snowballs out to help the kids make the snowmen.
I hope you all have a great Thanksgiving and holiday season. It will be difficult without my mom around, but I am trying to make the best of the "new normal". I want to create more fun memories for my kids, and just enjoy the little experiences that come our way.
It's been about 2 months since my mom's passing. Some days are easier than others. There are days when I've accepted her death, knowing she's in heaven, that she's at peace, and I will see her again.
Then there are days that when I am overcome by the knowledge that she is gone, and I am just so sad. Often, for a split second, I forget she is gone. When the phone rings, I think it's her, then I remember.
A few weeks ago, a friend suggested I paint a picture to let some of my feelings for my mom out. To be honest, I hadn't picked up a brush for at least 6 months. I could not find one ounce of motivation.
However, the other day, on one of my "weepy" days, I picked up a brush, pried open the stuck-on, paint dried, caps to my tubes of paint, and painted. "In My Mother's Arms" is a small, simple, and raw painting of how I felt sitting in my mom's lap as a child. It was a release of some pent-up emotion, and I felt better afterwards.
I'm not used to having snow lying around on the ground for days on end. After last weekend's dumping of snow, I'm done! It can snow in the mountains all it wants, but not here. Unfortunately, my children have yet to see their "snow day" - that free, unexpected, glorious day of no school. Oh well, I'm ready for some warmth. Everyone around me is probably tired of me saying "I hate being cold!" I'm ready for Spring!
Is it already the middle of the month? One month left until Valentines Day?
Things have been busy here - my mom had heart surgery last week, so I have been preoccupied with that. It'll take a few months to see if the surgery corrected her problem, but it is looking good so far, and we are hopeful.
My project this year (as is every year) is to organize, finish and purge. I am very tired of all the unnecessary stuff I have saved for "just in case". I am also tired of all the pictures sitting on floors waiting to be hung, and all the unfinished projects laying around. I want to "do" more than "wish" and "dream".
My oldest daughter has been the recipient of my focus on getting things done. I've started hanging pictures on her wall that have been sitting in a bin for months since her room was repainted. Here's a sneak peak of the in progress. We're planning a floor to ceiling art/photo/poster wall. Please excuse the mess!
Have a fantastic Monday! My focus for today is trying to stay warm! :)